There was a longish period the dense
duration of a London winter, cheered, if cheered it could be called, with
lurid
electric,
with fierce incandescent flares and
glares when they repeatedly met, at feeding-time, in a small
and not quite savoury pothouse a
stones-throw
from the
Strand.
They talked always of pothouses, of feeding-time by which they
meant any hour between one and four of the afternoon; they talked of most
things, even of some of the greatest, in a manner that gave, or that they
desired to show as giving, in respect to the conditions of their life, the
measure of their detachment, their contempt, their general irony. Their
general irony, which they tried at the same time to keep gay and to make
amusing at least to each other, was their refuge from the want of savour,
the want of napkins, the want, too often, of
shillings,
and of many things besides that they would have liked to have. Almost all
they had with any security was their youth, complete, admirable, very
nearly invulnerable, or as yet inattackable; for they didnt count
their talent, which they had originally taken for granted and had since
then lacked freedom of mind, as well indeed as any offensive reason, to
reappraise. They were taken up with other questions and other
estimates the remarkable limits, for instance, of their luck,
the remarkable smallness of the talent of their friends. They were above
all in that phase of youth and in that state of aspiration in which
luck is the subject of most frequent reference, as definite as
the colour red, and in which it is the elegant name for money when people
are as refined as they are poor. She was only a suburban young woman in a
sailor hat,
and he a young man destitute, in strictness, of occasion for a
topper; but they felt that they had in a peculiar way the
freedom of the town, and the town, if it did nothing else, gave a range to
the spirit. They sometimes went, on excursions that they groaned at as
professional, far afield from the Strand, but the curiosity with which they
came back was mostly greater than any other, the Strand
being for them, with its ampler alternative
Fleet Street,
overwhelmingly the Papers, and the Papers being, at a rough guess, all
the furniture of their consciousness.
The Daily Press played for them the part played by the
embowered nest on the swaying bough for the parent birds that scour the
air. It was, as they mainly saw it, a receptacle, owing its form to the
instinct more remarkable, as they held the journalistic, than that even of
the most highly organised animal, into which, regularly, breathlessly,
contributions had to be dropped odds and ends, all grist to the
mill, all somehow digestible and convertible, all conveyed with the
promptest possible beak and the flutter, often, of dreadfully fatigued
little wings. If there had been no Papers there would have been no young
friends for us of the figure we hint at, no chance mates, innocent and
weary, yet acute even to penetration, who were apt to push off their plates
and rest their elbows on the table in the interval between the turn-over of
the pint-pot and the call for the awful glibness of their score.
Maud Blandy
drank beer and welcome, as one may say; and she smoked
cigarettes when privacy permitted, though she drew the line at this in the
right place, just as she flattered herself she knew how to draw it,
journalistically, where other delicacies were concerned. She was fairly a
product of the day so fairly that she might have been born
afresh each morning, to serve, after the fashion of certain agitated
ephemeral insects, only till the morrow. It was as if a past had been
wasted on her and a future were not to be fitted; she was really herself,
so far at least as her great preoccupation went, an edition, an extra
special, coming out at the loud hours and living its life, amid the
roar of vehicles, the hustle of pavements, the shriek of newsboys,
according to the quantity of shock to be administered, thanks to the
varying temper of Fleet Street, to the nerves of the nation. Maud was
a shocker, in short, in petticoats,
and alike for the thoroughfare, the club, the suburban train and the humble
home; though it must honestly be added that petticoats were not of her
essence. This was one of the reasons, in an age of
emancipations, of her intense actuality, as well as,
positively, of a good fortune to which, however impersonal she might have
appeared, she was not herself in a position to do full justice; the
felicity of her having about her naturally so much of the young bachelor
that she was saved the disfigurement of any marked straddling or elbowing.
It was literally true of her that she would have pleased less, or at least
have offended more, had she been obliged, or been prompted, to
assert all too vainly, as it would have been sure to
be her superiority to sex. Nature, constitution, accident,
whatever we happen to call it, had relieved her of this care; the struggle
for life, the competition with men, the taste of the day, the fashion of
the hour had made her superior, or had at any rate made her
indifferent, and she had no difficulty in remaining so. The thing was
therefore, with the aid of an extreme general flatness of person,
directness of step and simplicity of motive, quietly enough done, without a
grace, a weak inconsequence, a stray reminder to interfere with the
success; and it is not too much to say that the success by
which I mean the plainness of the type would probably never
have struck you as so great as at the moments of our young ladys
chance comradeship with
Howard Bight.
For the young man, though his personal signs had not, like his
friends, especially the effect of one of the stages of an evolution,
might have been noted as not so fiercely or so freshly a male as to
distance Maud in the show.
She presented him in truth, while they sat together, as
comparatively girlish. She fell naturally into gestures, tones,
expressions, resemblances, that he either suppressed, from sensibility to
her personal predominance, or that were merely latent in him through much
taking for granted. Mild, sensitive, none too solidly nourished, and
condemned, perhaps by a deep delusion as to the final issue of it, to
perpetual coming and going, he was so resigned to many things, and so
disgusted even with many others, that the least of his cares was the
cultivation of a bold front. What mainly concerned him was its being bold
enough to get him his dinner, and it was never more void of aggression than
when he solicited in person those scraps of information, snatched at those
floating particles of news, on which his dinner depended. Had he had time a
little more to try his case, he would have made out that if he liked Maud
Blandy, it was partly by the impression of what she could do for him: what
she could do for herself had never entered into his head. The positive
quantity, moreover, was vague to his mind; it existed, that is, for the
present, but as the proof of how, in spite of the want of encouragement, a
fellow could keep going. She struck him in fact as the only encouragement
he had, and this altogether by example, since precept, frankly, was
deterrent on her lips, as speech was free, judgement prompt, and accent not
absolutely pure. The point was that, as the easiest thing to be with her,
he was so passive that it almost made him graceful and so attentive that it
almost made him distinguished. She was herself neither of these things, and
they were not of course what a man had most to be; whereby she contributed
to their common view the
impatiences required by a proper reaction, forming thus for him a kind
of protective hedge behind which he could wait. Much waiting, for either,
was, I hasten to add, always in order, inasmuch as their novitiate
seemed to them interminable and the steps of their ladder fearfully
far apart. It rested the ladder against the
great stony wall of the public attention a sustaining mass
which apparently wore somewhere, in the upper air, a big, thankless,
expressionless face, a countenance equipped with eyes, ears, an uplifted
nose and a gaping mouth all convenient if they could only be
reached. The ladder groaned meanwhile, swayed and shook with the weight of
the close-pressed climbers, tier upon tier, occupying the upper, the
middle, the nethermost rounds and quite preventing, for young persons
placed as our young friends were placed, any view of the summit. It was
meanwhile moreover only Howard Bights perverse view he
was confessedly perverse that Miss Blandy had arrived at a
perch superior to his own.
She had hitherto recognised in herself indeed but a
tighter clutch and a grimmer purpose; she had recognised, she believed,
in keen moments, a vocation; she had recognised that there had been eleven
of them at home, with herself as youngest, and distinctions by that time so
blurred in her that she might as easily have been christened John. She had
recognised truly, most of all, that if they came to talk they both were
nowhere; yet this was compatible with her insisting that Howard had as yet
comparatively had the luck. When he wrote to people they consented, or at
least they answered; almost always, for that matter, they answered with
greed, so that he was not without something of some sort to hawk about to
buyers. Specimens indeed of human greed the greed, the
great one, the eagerness to figure, the snap at the bait of publicity, he
had collected in such store as to stock, as to launch, a museum. In this
museum the prize object, the high rare specimen, had been for some time
established; a celebrity of the day enjoying, uncontested, a glass case all
to himself, more conspicuous than any other, before which the arrested
visitor might rebound from surprised recognition. Sir A. B. C.
Beadel-Muffet
K.C.B.,
M.P.,
stood forth there as large as life, owing indeed his particular place to
the shade of direct acquaintance with him that Howard Bight could boast,
yet with his eminent presence in such a collection but too generally and
notoriously justified. He was universal and ubiquitous, commemorated, under
some rank rubric, on every page of every public print every day in every year,
and as inveterate a feature of each issue of any self-respecting sheet as
the name, the date, the tariffed advertisements. He had always done
something, or was about to do something, round which the honours of
announcement clustered, and indeed, as he had inevitably thus become a
subject of fallacious report, one half of his chronicle appeared to consist
of official contradiction of the other half. His activity if it
had not better been called his passivity was beyond any other
that figured in the public eye, for no other assuredly knew so few or such
brief intermittences. Yet, as there was the inside as well as the outside
view of his current history, the quantity of it was easy to analyse for the
possessor of the proper crucible. Howard Bight, with his arms on the table,
took it apart and put it together again most days in the year, so that an
amused comparison of notes on the subject often added a mild spice to his
colloquies with Maud Blandy. They knew, the young pair, as they considered,
many secrets, but they liked to think that they knew none quite so
scandalous as the way that, to put it roughly, this distinguished person
maintained his distinction.
It was known certainly to all who had to do with the
Papers, a brotherhood, a sisterhood of course interested for
what was it, in the last resort, but the interest of their bread and
butter? in shrouding the approaches to the oracle, in not
telling tales out of school. They all lived alike on the solemnity, the
sanctity of the oracle, and the comings and goings, the doings and the
undoings, the intentions and
retractations
of Sir A. B. C. Beadel-Muffet K.C.B., M.P., were in their
degree a part of that solemnity. The Papers, taken together the glory of
the age, were, though superficially multifold, fundamentally one, so that
any revelation of their being procured or procurable to float an object not
intrinsically buoyant would very logically convey discredit from the
circumference where the revelation would be likely to be
made to the centre. Of so much as this our grim neophytes, in
common with a thousand others, were perfectly aware; but something in the
nature of their wit, such as it was, or in the condition of their nerves,
such as it easily might become, sharpened almost to acerbity their relish
of so artful an imitation of the voice of fame. The fame was all
voice, as they could guarantee who had an ear always glued to the
speaking-tube; the items that made the sum were individually of the last
vulgarity, but the accumulation was a triumph one of the
greatest the age could show of industry and vigilance. It was
after all not true that a man had done nothing who for ten years had so
fed, so dyked and directed and distributed the fitful sources of publicity.
He had laboured, in his way, like a navvy
with a spade; he might be said to
have earned by each nights work the reward, each morning, of his
small spurt of glory. Even for such a matter as its not being true that Sir
A. B. C. Beadel-Muffet K.C.B., M.P., was to start on his
visit to the Sultan of Samarcand on the 23rd, but being true that
he was to start on the 29th, the personal attention required was no small
affair, taking the legend with the fact, the myth with the meaning, the
original artless error with the subsequent earnest truth allowing
in fine for the statement still to come that the visit would have to be
relinquished in consequence of the visitors other pressing
engagements, and bearing in mind the countless channels to be successively
watered. Our young man, one December afternoon, pushed an evening paper
across to his companion, keeping his thumb on a paragraph at which she
glanced without eagerness. She might, from her manner, have known by
instinct what it would be, and her exclamation had the note of satiety.
Oh, hes working them now?
If he has begun hell work them hard. By the
time that has gone round the world therell be something else to say.
We are authorised to state that the marriage of Miss Miranda
Beadel-Muffet to Captain Guy Devereux, of the
Fiftieth Rifles,
will not take place. Authorised to state rather! when
every wire in the machine has been pulled over and over. Theyre
authorised to state something every day in the year, and the authorisation
is not difficult to get. Only his daughters, now that theyre coming
on, poor things and I believe there are many will
have to be chucked into the pot and produced on occasions when other matter
fails. How pleasant for them to find themselves hurtling through the air,
clubbed by the paternal hand, like golf-balls in a suburb! Not that I
suppose they dont like it why should one suppose anything
of the sort? Howard Bights impression of the general appetite
appeared to-day to be especially vivid, and he and his companion were alike
prompted to one of those slightly violent returns on themselves and the
work they were doing which none but the vulgar-minded altogether avoid.
People as I see them would almost rather be
jabbered about unpleasantly than not be jabbered about at all: whenever you
try them whenever, at least, I do Im
confirmed in that conviction. It isnt only that if one holds out the
mere tip of the perch they jump at it like starving fish; it is that they
leap straight out of the water themselves, leap in their thousands and come
flopping, open-mouthed and goggle-eyed, to ones very door. What is
the sense of the French expression about a persons making
des yeux de carpe?
It suggests the eyes that
a young newspaper-man seems to see all round him,
and I declare I sometimes feel that, if one has the courage not to blink at
the show, the gilt is a good deal rubbed off the gingerbread of ones
early illusions. They all do it, as the song is at the music-halls, and
its some of ones surprises that tell one most. Youve
thought there were some high souls that didnt do it that
wouldnt, I mean, to work the oracle, lift a little finger of their
own. But, Lord bless you, give them a chance youll find
some of the greatest the greediest. I give you my word for it, I
havent a scrap of faith left in a single human creature. Except, of
course, the young man added, the grand creature that
you are, and the cold, calm, comprehensive one whom you thus admit
to your familiarity. We face the music. We see, we understand; we
know weve got to live, and how we do it. But at least, like this,
alone together, we take our intellectual revenge, we escape the indignity
of being fools dealing with fools. I dont way we shouldnt enjoy
it more if we were. But it cant be helped; we havent
the gift the gift, I mean, of not seeing.
We do the worst we can for the money.
You certainly do the worst you
can, Maud Blandy soon replied, when you sit there, with your
wanton wiles, and take the spirit out of me. I require a working faith, you
know. If one isnt a fool, in our world, where is
one?
Oh, I say! her companion groaned without
alarm. Dont you fail me, mind you.
They looked at each other across their clean platters,
and, little as the light of romance seemed superficially to shine in them
or about them, the sense was visibly enough in each of being involved in
the other. He would have been sharply alone, the softly sardonic young man,
if the somewhat dry young woman hadnt affected him, in a way he was
even too nervous to put to the test, as saving herself up for him; and the
consciousness of absent resources that was on her own side quite compatible
with this economy grew a shade or two less dismal with the imagination of
his somehow being at costs for her. It wasnt an expense of
shillings there was not much question of that; what it came to
was perhaps nothing more than that, being as he declared himself, in
the know, he kept pulling her in too, as if there had been room for
them both. He told her everything, all his secrets. He talked and talked,
often making her think of herself as a lean, stiff person, destitute of
skill or art, but with ear enough to be performed to, sometimes strangely
touched, at moments completely ravished, by a fine violinist. He was her
fiddler and genius; she was
sure neither of her taste nor of his tunes, but
if she could do nothing else for him she could hold the case while he
handled the instrument. It had never passed between them that they could
draw nearer, for they seemed near, near verily for pleasure, when each, in
a decent young life, was so much nearer to the other than to anything else.
There was no pleasure known to either that wasnt further off. What
held them together was in short that they were in the same boat, a
cockle-shell in a great rough sea,
and that the movements required for keeping it afloat not only were what
the situation safely permitted, but also made for reciprocity and intimacy.
These talks over greasy white slabs, repeatedly mopped with moist grey
cloths by young women in black uniforms, with inexorable braided
buns in the nape of weak necks, these sessions, sometimes
prolonged, in halls of
oilcloth,
among penal-looking tariffs and pyramids of scones, enabled them to rest
on their oars; the more that they were on terms with the whole families,
chartered companies, of food-stations, each a race of innumerable and
indistinguishable members, and had mastered those hours of comparative
elegance, the earlier and the later, when the little weary ministrants were
limply sitting down and the occupants of the red benches bleakly
interspaced. So it was, that, at times, they renewed their understanding,
and by signs, mannerless and meagre, that would have escaped the notice of
witnesses. Maud Blandy had no need to
kiss her hand across to him
to show she felt what he meant; she had moreover never in her life
kissed her hand to anyone,
and her companion couldnt have imagined it of her. His romance
was so grey that it wasnt romance at all; it was a reality arrived at
without stages, shades, forms. If he had been ill or stricken she would
have taken him other resources failing into her lap; but
would that, which would scarce even have been motherly, have been romantic?
She nevertheless at this moment put in her plea for the general element.
I cant help it, about Beadel-Muffet; its too magnificent
it appeals to me. And then Ive a particular feeling about him
Im waiting to see what will happen. It is genius, you
know, to get yourself so celebrated for nothing to carry out your
idea in the face of everything. I mean your idea of being
celebrated. It isnt as if he had done even one little thing. What
has he done when you come to look?
Why, my dear chap, he has done everything. He has
missed nothing. He has been in everything, of everything,
at everything, over everything, under
everything, that has taken place for the last twenty years. Hes
always present, and, though he never
makes a speech, he never
fails to get alluded to in the speeches of others. Thats doing it
cheaper than anyone else does it, but its thoroughly doing it
which is what were talking about. And so far, the young man
contended, from its being in the face of anything,
its positively with the help of everything, since the Papers are
everything and more. Theyre made for such people, though no doubt
hes the person who has known best how to use them. Ive gone
through one of the biggest sometimes, from beginning to end
its quite a thrilling little game to catch him once out. It
has happened to me to think I was near it when, on the last column of the
last page I count advertisements, heaven help us, out!
Ive found him as large as life and as true as the needle to
the pole.
But at last, in a way, it goes, it cant help going, of
itself. He comes in, he breaks out, of himself; the letters, under the
compositors hand, form themselves, from the force of habit, into his
name any connection for it, any context, being as good as any other,
and the wind, which he has originally raised, but which
continues to blow, setting perpetually in his favour. The thing would
really be now, dont you see, for him to keep himself out. That would
be, on my honour, it strikes me his getting himself out
the biggest fact in his record.
The girls attention, as her friend developed the
picture, had become more present. He cant get himself
out. There he is. She had a pause; she had been thinking.
Thats just my idea.
Your idea? Well, an ideas always a
blessing. What do you want for it?
She continued to turn it over as if weighing its value.
Something perhaps could be done with it only it would
take imagination.
He wondered, and she seemed to wonder that he
didnt see. Is it a situation for a
ply!
No, its too good for a ply yet it
isnt quite good enough for a short story.
It would do then for a novel?
Well, I seem to see it, Maud said
and with a lot in it to be got out. But I seem to see it as
a question not of what you or I might be able to do with it, but of what
the poor man himself may. Thats what I meant just now, she
explained, by my having a creepy sense of what may happen for him. It
has already more than once occurred to me. Then, she wound
up, we shall have real life, the case itself.
Do you know youve got
imagination? Her friend, rather interested, appeared by this time to
have seized her thought.
I see him having for some reason, very
imperative, to seek retirement, lie low, to hide, in fact, like a man
wanted, but pursued all the while by the lurid glare that he
has himself so started and kept up, and at last literally devoured
(like
Frankenstein,
of course!) by the monster he has created.
I say, you have got it! and
the young man flushed, visibly, artistically, with the recognition of
elements which his eyes had for a minute earnestly fixed. But it will
take a lot of doing.
Oh, said Maud, we
shant have to do it. Hell do it himself.
I wonder. Howard Bight really wondered.
The fun would be for him to do it for us. I mean for him to
want us to help him somehow to get out.
Oh, us! the girl mournfully
sighed.
Why not, when he comes to us to get in?
Maud Blandy stared. Do you mean to you
personally? You surely know by this time that no one ever comes
to me.
Why, I went to him in the first instance; I made
up to him straight, I did him at home, somewhere, as Ive
surely mentioned to you before, three years ago. He liked, I believe
for hes really a delightful old ass the way I did it; he knows
my name and has my address, and has written me three or four times since,
with his own hand, a request to be so good as to make use of my (he hopes)
still close connection with the daily Press to rectify the rumour that he
has reconsidered his opinion on the subject of the blankets supplied to the
Upper Tooting
Workhouse
Infirmary. He has reconsidered his opinion on no subject whatever
which he mentions, in the interest of historic truth, without further
intrusion on my valuable time. And he regards that sort of thing as a
commodity that I can dispose of thanks to my close
connection for several shillings.
And can you?
Not for several pence. Theyre all tariffed,
but hes tariffed low having a value, apparently, that money
doesnt represent. Hes always welcome, but he isnt always
paid for. The beauty, however, is in his marvellous memory, his keeping us
all so apart and not muddling the fellow to whom he has written that he
hasnt done this, that or the other with the fellow to whom he has
written that he has. Hell write to me again some day about something
else about his alleged position on the date of the next
school-treat
of the
Chelsea Cabmens Orphanage.
I shall seek a market for the precious item, and that will keep us in
touch; so that if the complication you have the sense of in your bones does
come into play the thoughts too beautiful! he
may once more remember me. Fancy his coming to one with a What can you
do for me
now?
.
Bight lost himself in the happy vision; it gratified so his cherished
consciousness of the irony of fate a consciousness
so cherished that he never could write ten lines without use of the words.
Maud showed however at this point a reserve which
appeared to have grown as the possibility opened out. I believe in it
it must come. It cant not. Its the only end. He
doesnt know; nobody knows the simple-minded all: only you and
I know. But it wont be nice, remember.
It wont be funny?
It will be pitiful. Therell have to be a
reason.
For his turning round? the young man nursed
the vision. More or less I see what you mean. But except for a
ply will that so much matter? His reason will concern himself.
What will concern us will be his funk and his helplessness, his having to
stand there in the blaze, with nothing and nobody to put it out. We shall
see him, shrieking for a bucket of water, wither up in the central
flame.
Her look had turned sombre. It makes one cruel.
That is it makes you. I mean our trade does.
I dare say I see too much. But Im
willing to chuck it.
Well, she presently replied, Im
not willing to, but it seems pretty well on the cards that I shall have to.
I dont see too much. I dont see enough. So, for all
the good it does me!
She had pushed back her chair and was looking round for
her umbrella. Why, whats the matter? Howard Bight too
blankly inquired.
She met his eyes while she pulled on her rusty old
gloves. Well, Ill tell you another time.
He kept his place, still lounging, contented where she
had again become restless. Dont you call it seeing enough to
see to have had so luridly revealed to you the doom of
Beadel-Muffet?
Oh, hes not my business, hes yours.
Youre his man, or one of his men hell come back to you.
Besides, hes a special case, and, as I say, Im too sorry for
him.
Thats a proof then of what you do
see.
Her silence for a moment admitted it, though evidently
she was making, for herself, a distinction, which she didnt express.
I dont then see what I want, what I require. And
he, she added, if he does have some reason, will have
to have an awfully strong one. To be strong enough it will have to be
awful.
You mean hell have done
something?
Yes, that may remain undiscovered if he can only
drop out of the papers, sit for a while in darkness. Youll know what
it is; youll not be able to help yourself. But I shant want to,
for anything.
She had got up as she said it, and he sat looking at
her, thanks to her odd emphasis, with an interest that, as he also rose,
passed itself off as a joke. Ah, then, you sweet sensitive thing, I
promise to keep it from you.
They met again a few days later, and it seemed the law
of their meetings that these should take place mainly within moderate
eastward range of
Charing Cross.
An afternoon performance of a
play translated from the Finnish,
already several times given, on a series of Saturdays, had held Maud for an
hour in a small, hot, dusty theatre where the air hung as heavy about the
great trimmed and plumed hats of the ladies as over the flora
and fauna of a tropical forest; at the end of which she edged out of her
stall in the last row, to join a small band of unattached critics and
correspondents, spectators with ulterior views and pencilled shirtcuffs,
who, coming together in the lobby for an exchange of ideas, were ranging
from Awful rot to Rather jolly. Ideas, of this
calibre, rumbled and flashed, so that, lost in the discussion, our young
woman failed at first to make out that a gentleman on the other side of the
group, but standing a little off, had his eyes on her for some extravagant,
though apparently quite respectable, purpose. He had been waiting for her
to recognise him, and as soon as he had caught her attention he came round
to her with an eager bow. She had by this time entirely placed him
placed him as the smoothest and most shining subject with which, in the
exercise of her profession, she had yet experimented; but her recognition
was accompanied with a pang that his amiable address made but the sharper.
She had her reason for awkwardness in the presence of the rosy, glossy,
kindly, but discernibly troubled personage whom she had waited on at
home at her own suggestion promptly welcomed and the
sympathetic element in whose personality, the
Chippendale,
the photographic, the autographic elements in whose flat in the
Earls Court Road,
she had commemorated in the liveliest prose of which she was capable.
She had described with humour his favourite make of
Kodak,
she had touched upon his favourite manner of spending his Sundays and had
extorted from him the
shy confession that he preferred after all the novel of adventure to the
novel of subtlety. Her embarrassment was therefore now the greater as,
touching to behold, he so clearly had approached her with no intention
of asperity, not even at first referring at all to the matter that
couldnt have been gracefully explained.
She had seen him originally had had the instinct
of it in making up to him as one of the happy of the earth, and the
impression of him at home, on his proving so good-natured about
the interview, had begotten in her a sharper envy, a hungrier sense of the
invidious distinctions of fate, than any her literary conscience, which she
deemed rigid, had yet had to reckon with. He must have been rich, rich by
such estimates as hers; he at any rate had everything, while she had
nothing nothing but the vulgar need of offering him to brag, on his
behalf, for money, if she could get it, about his luck. She hadnt in
fact got money, hadnt so much as managed to work in her stuff
anywhere; a practical comment sharp enough on her having represented to him
with wasted pathos, she was indeed soon to perceive how
important it was to her that people should let her get at
them. This dim celebrity had not needed that argument; he had not only,
with his alacrity, allowed her, as she had said, to try her hand, but had
tried with her, quite feverishly, and all to the upshot of showing
her that there were even greater outsiders than herself. He could have put
down money, could have published, as the phrase was a bare two
columns at his own expense; but it was just a part of his rather
irritating luxury that he had a scruple about that, wanted intensely to
taste the sweet, but didnt want to owe it to any wire-pulling. He
wanted the golden apple straight from the tree, where it yet seemed so
unable to grow for him by any exuberance of its own. He had breathed to her
his real secret that to be inspired, to work with effect, he had to
feel he was appreciated, to have it all somehow come back to him. The
artist, necessarily sensitive, lived on encouragement, on knowing and being
reminded that people cared for him a little, cared even just enough to
flatter him a wee bit. They had talked that over, and he had really, as he
called it, quite put himself in her power. He had whispered in her ear that
it might be very weak and silly, but that positively to be himself, to do
anything, certainly to do his best, he required the breath of sympathy. He
did love notice, let alone praise there it was. To be systematically
ignored well, blighted him at the root. He was afraid she would
think he had said too much, but she left him with his leave, none the less,
to repeat a part of it. They had agreed that she was to bring in prettily,
somehow, that
he did love praise; for just the right way he was sure he
could trust to her taste.
She had promised to send him the interview in proof,
but she had been able, after all, to send it but in type-copy. If
she, after all, had had a flat adorned as to the
drawing-room alone with
eighty-three photographs, and all in plush frames; if she had lived in the
Earls Court Road,
had been rosy and glossy and well filled out; and if she had looked withal,
as she always made a point of calling it when she wished to refer without
vulgarity to the right place in the social scale. unmistakeably
gentle if she had achieved these things she would have snapped
her fingers at all other sweets, have sat as tight as possible and let the
world wag, have spent her Sundays in silently thanking her stars, and not
have cared to know one Kodak, or even one novelists
methods, from another. Except for his unholy itch he was in
short so just the person she would have liked to be that the last
consecration was given for her to his character by his speaking quite as if
he had accosted her only to secure her view of the strange Finnish
soul. He had come each time there had been four
Saturdays; whereas Maud herself had had to wait till to-day, though her
bread depended on it, for the roundabout charity of her publicly bad seat.
It didnt matter why he had come so that he might see
it somewhere printed of him that he was a conspicuously faithful
attendant at the interesting series; it only mattered that he was
letting her off so easily, and yet that there was a restless hunger, odd on
the part of one of the filled-out, in his appealing eye, which she now saw
not to be a bit intelligent, though that didnt matter either. Howard
Bight came into view while she dealt with these impressions, whereupon she
found herself edging a little away from her patron. Her other friend, who
had but just arrived and was apparently waiting to speak to her, would be a
pretext for a break before the poor gentleman should begin to accuse her of
having failed him. She had failed herself so much more that she would have
been ready to reply to him that he was scarce the one to complain;
fortunately, however, the bell sounded the end of the interval and her
tension was relaxed. They all flocked back to their places, and her
camarade
she knew enough often so to designate him was enabled, thanks
to some shifting of other spectators, to occupy a seat beside her. He had
brought with him the breath of business; hurrying from one appointment to
another he might have time but for a single act. He had seen each of the
others by itself, and the way he now crammed in the third, after having
previously snatched the fourth, brought home again to the girl
that he was leading the real life. Her own was a dull imitation of it.
Yet it happened at the same time that before the curtain rose again he
had, with a
Whos your fat friend?
professed to have caught her in the act of making her own brighter.
Mortimer Marshal?
he echoed after she had, a trifle dryly, satisfied him. Never heard
of him.
Well, I shant tell him that. But you
have, she said; youve only forgotten. I told you
after I had been to him.
Her friend thought it came back to him. Oh
yes, and showed me what you had made of it. I remember your stuff was
charming.
I see you remember nothing, Maud a little
more dryly said. I didnt show you what I had made of it.
Ive never made anything. Youve not seen my stuff, and nobody
has. They wont have it.
She spoke with a smothered vibration, but, as they were
still waiting, it had made him look at her; by which she was slightly the
more disconcerted. Who wont?
Everyone, everything wont. Nobody, nothing
will. Hes hopeless, or rather I am. Im no good. And he
knows it.
O oh! the young man kindly but
vaguely protested. Has he been making that remark to you?
No thats the worst of it. Hes
too dreadfully civil. He thinks I can do something.
Then why do you say he knows you
cant?
She was impatient; she gave it up. Well, I
dont know what he knows except that he does want to be
loved.
Do you mean he has proposed to you to love
him?
Loved by the great heart of the public
speaking through its natural organ. He wants to be well, where
Beadel-Muffet is.
Oh, I hope not! said Bight with grim
amusement.
His friend was struck with his tone. Do you mean
its coming on for Beadel-Muffet what we talked about?
And then as he looked at her so queerly that her curiosity took a jump:
It really and truly is? Has anything happened?
The rummest thing in the world since I
last saw you. Were wonderful, you know, you and I together we
see. And what we see always takes place, usually within the week.
It wouldnt be believed. But it will do for us. At any rate
its high sport.
Do you mean, she asked, that his
scare has literally begun?
He meant, clearly, quite as much as he said. He
has written to me again he wants to see me, and weve an appointment
for Monday.
Then why isnt it the old game?
Because it isnt. He wants to gather from
me, as I have served him before, if something cant be done.
On a souvent besoin dun plus petit que soi.
Keep quiet, and we shall see something.
This was very well; only his manner visibly had for her
the effect of a chill in the air. I hope, she said,
youre going at least to be decent to him.
Well, youll judge. Nothing at all can be
done its too ridiculously late. And it serves him right. I
shant deceive him, certainly, but I might as well enjoy
him.
The fiddles were still going, and Maud had a pause.
Well, you know youve more of less lived on him. I mean
its the kind of thing you are living on.
Precisely thats just why I loathe
it.
Again she hesitated. You mustnt quarrel,
you know, with your bread and butter.
He looked straight before him, as if she had been
consciously, and the least bit disagreeably, sententious. What in the
worlds that but what I shall just be not doing? If our bread
and butter is the universal push I consult our interest by not letting it
trifle with us. Theyre not to blow hot and cold it wont
do. There he is let him get out himself. What I call sport is to see
if he can.
And not poor wretch to help
him?
But Bight was ominously lucid. The devil is that
he cant be helped. His one idea of help, from the day he
opened his eyes, has been to be prominently damn the word!
mentioned: its the only kind of help that exists in connection with
him. What therefore is a fellow to do when he happens to want it to stop
wants a special sort of prominence that will work like a trap in a
pantomime and enable him to vanish when the situation requires it? Is one
to mention that he wants not to be mentioned never, never,
please, any more? Do you see the success of that, all over the place, do
you see the headlines in the American papers? No, he must die as he has
lived the Principal Public Person of his time.
Well, she sighed, its all
horrible. And then without a transition: What do you suppose
has happened to him?
The dreadfulness I wasnt to tell
you?
I only mean if you suppose him in a really bad
hole.
The young man considered. It cant certainly
be that he has had a change of heart never. It may be nothing worse
than that the woman he wants to marry has turned against it.
But I supposed him with his children all
so boomed to be married.
Naturally; else he couldnt have got such a
boom from the poor ladys illness, death and burial. Dont you
remember two years ago? We are given to understand that
Sir A. B. C. Beadel-Muffet K.C.B., M.P., particularly
desires that no flowers be sent for the late Hon. Lady Beadel-Muffets
funeral. And then, the next day: We are authorised to state
that the impression, so generally prevailing, that Sir A. B. C.
Beadel-Muffet has expressed an objection to flowers in connection with the
late Hon. Lady Beadel-Muffets obsequies, rests on a misapprehension
of Sir A. B. C. Beadel-Muffets markedly individual views. The floral
tributes already delivered in
Queens Gate Gardens,
and remarkable for number and variety, have been a source of such
gratification to the bereaved gentleman as his situation permits.
With a wind-up of course for the following week the inevitable few
heads of remark, on the part of the bereaved gentleman, on the general
subject of Flowers at Funerals as a Fashion, vouchsafed, under pressure
possibly indiscreet, to a rising young journalist always thirsting for the
authentic word.
I guess now, said Maud, after an instant,
the rising young journalist. You egged him on.
Dear, no. I panted in his rear.
It makes you, she added, more than
cynical.
And what do you call more than
cynical?
It makes you sardonic. Wicked, she
continued; devilish.
Thats it that is cynical.
Enoughs as good as a feast. But he came back to the ground they
had quitted. What were you going to say hes prominent
for, Mortimer Marshal?
She wouldnt, however, follow him there yet, her
curiosity on the other issue not being spent. Do you know then as a
fact, that hes marrying again, the bereaved gentleman?
Her friend, at this, showed impatience. My dear
fellow, do you see nothing? We had it all, didnt we, three
months ago, and then we didnt have it, and then we had it again; and
goodness knows where we are. But I throw out the possibility. I forget her
bloated name, but she may be rich, and she may be decent. She may make it a
condition that he keeps out out, I mean, of the only things he has
really ever been in.
The Papers?
The dreadful, nasty, vulgar Papers. She may put
it to him I see it dimly and queerly, but I see it that he
must get out first, and then theyll talk; then shell say yes,
then hell have the money. I see it and much more sharply
that he wants
the money, needs it, I mean, badly, desperately, so that this necessity
may very well make the hole in which he finds himself. Therefore he must
do something what hes trying to do. It supplies the motive
that our picture, the other day, rather missed.
Maud Blandy took this in, but it seemed to fail to
satisfy her. It must be something worse. You make it out
that, so that your practical want of mercy, which youll not
be able to conceal from me, shall affect me as less inhuman.
I dont make it out anything, and I
dont care what it is; the queerness, the grand irony of
the case is itself enough for me. You, on your side, however, I think, make
it out what you call something worse, because of the romantic
bias of your mind. You see red. Yet isnt it, after all,
sufficiently lurid that he shall lose his blooming bride?
Youre sure, Maud appealed, that
hell lose her?
Poetic justice screams for it; and my whole
interest in the matter is staked on it.
But the girl continued to brood. I thought you
contend that nobodys half decent. Where do you find a
woman to make such a condition?
Not easily, I admit. The young man thought.
It will be his luck to have found her. Thats his
tragedy, say, that she can financially save him, but that she happens to be
just the one freak, the creature whose stomach has turned. The spark
I mean of decency has got, after all, somehow to be kept alive; and
it may be lodged in this particular female form.
I see. But why should a female form thats
so particular confess to an affinity with a male form thats so
fearfully general? As hes all self-advertisement, why
isnt it much more natural to her simply to loathe him?
Well, because, oddly enough, it seems that people
dont.
You do, Maud declared.
Youll kill him.
He just turned a flushed cheek to her, and she saw that
she had touched something that lived in him. We can,
he consciously smiled, deal death. And the beauty is that its
in a perfectly straight way. We can lead them on. But have you ever seen
Beadel-Muffet for yourself? he continued.
No. How often, please, need I tell you that
Ive seen nobody and nothing?
Well, if you had youd understand.
You mean hes so fetching?
Oh, hes great. Hes not
all self-advertisement or at least he doesnt seem
to be: thats his pull. But I see, you
female humbug, Bight pursued, how much youd like him
yourself.
I want, while Im about it, to pity him in
sufficient quantity.
Precisely. Which means, for a woman, with
extravagance and to the point of immorality.
I aint a woman, Maud Blandy sighed.
I wish I were!
Well, about the pity, he went on; you
shall be immoral, I promise you, before youve done. Doesnt
Mortimer Marshal, he asked, take you for a woman?
Youll have to ask him. How,
she demanded, does one know those things? And she stuck to her
Beadel-Muffet. If youre to see him on Monday shant you
then get to the bottom of it?
Oh, I dont conceal from you that I promise
myself larks, but I wont tell you, positively I wont,
Bight said, what I see. Youre morbid. If its only bad
enough I mean his motive youll want to save
him.
Well, isnt that what youre to profess
to him that you want?
Ah, the young man returned, I believe
youd really invent a way.
I would if I could. And with that she
dropped it. Theres my fat friend, she presently added, as
the entracte still hung heavy and Mortimer Marshal, from a row much
in advance of them, screwed himself round in his tight place apparently to
keep her in his eye.
He does then, said her companion,
take you for a woman. I seem to guess hes
littery.
Thats it; so badly that he wrote that
littery
ply
Corisanda,
you must remember, with
Beatrice Beaumont
in the principal part, which was given at three matinées in this
very place and which hadnt even the luck of being slated. Every
creature connected with the production, from the man himself and Beatrice
herself down to the mothers and grandmothers of the sixpenny
young women, the young women of the programmes, was interviewed both before
and after, and he promptly published the piece, pleading guilty to the
littery charge which is the great stand he takes and the
subject of the discussion.
Bight had wonderingly followed. Of what
discussion?
Why, the one he thinks there ought to have been.
There hasnt been any, of course, but he wants it, dreadfully misses
it. People wont keep it up whatever they did do,
though I dont myself make out that they did anything. His state of
mind required something to start with, which has got somehow to be
provided. There must have been a noise made, dont you see?
to make him prominent; and in order to remain prominent, he has got to go
for his enemies. The hostility to his ply, and all because its
littery, we can do nothing without that; but its uphill
work to come across it. We sit up nights trying, but we seem to get no
forarder. The public attention would seem to abhor the whole matter
even as nature abhors a vacuum. Weve nothing to go upon, otherwise we
might go far. But there we are.
I see, Bight commented. Youre
nowhere at all.
No; it isnt even that, for were just
where Corisanda, on the stage and
in the closet,
put us at a stroke. Only there we stick fast nothing seems to
happen, nothing seems to come or to be capable of being made to come. We
wait.
Oh, if he waits with you! Bight
amicably jibed.
He may wait for ever?
No, but resignedly. Youll make him forget
his wrongs.
Ah, Im not of that sort, and I could only
do it by making him come into his rights. And I recognise now that
thats impossible. There are different cases, you see, whole different
classes of them, and his is the opposite to Beadel-Muffets.
Howard Bight gave a grunt. Why the opposite if
you also pity him? Ill be hanged, he added, if you
wont save him too.
But she shook her head. She knew. No; but
its nearly, in its way, as lurid. Do you know, she asked,
what he has done?
Why, the difficulty appears to be that he
cant have done anything. He should strike once more hard, and
in the same place. He should bring out another ply.
Why so? You cant be more than prominent,
and he is prominent. You cant do more than subscribe, in
your prominence, to thirty-seven press-cutting agencies in
England and America, and, having done so, you cant do more than sit
at home with your ear on the postmans knock, looking out for results.
There comes in the tragedy there are no results. Mortimer
Marshals postman doesnt knock; the press-cutting agencies
cant find anything to cut. With thirty-seven, in the whole
English-speaking world, scouring millions of papers for him in vain, and
with a big slice of his private income all the while going to it, the
irony is too cruel, and the way he looks at one, as in
ones degree responsible, does make one wince. He expected, naturally,
most from the Americans, but its they who have failed him worst.
Their silence is that of the tomb, and it seems to grow, if the silence of
the tomb can grow. He wont
admit that the thirty-seven look far enough or long enough, and he writes
them, I infer, angry letters, wanting to know what the deuce they suppose
he has paid them for. But what are they either, poor things, to do?
Do? They can print his angry letters. That, at
least, will break the silence, and hell like it better than
nothing.
This appeared to strike our young woman. Upon my
word, I really believe he would. Then she thought better of it.
But theyd be afraid, for they do guarantee, you know, that
theres something for everyone. They claim its their strength
that theres enough to go round. They wont want to
show that they break down.
Oh, well, said the young man, if he
cant manage to smash a pane of glass somewhere!
Thats what he thought I would do.
And its what I thought I might, Maud added;
otherwise I wouldnt have approached him. I did it on spec,
but Im no use. Im a fatal influence. Im a
non-conductor.
She said it with such plain sincerity that it quickly
took her companions attention. I say! he
covertly murmured. Have you a secret sorrow?
Of course Ive a secret sorrow. And
she stared at it, stiff and a little sombre, not wanting it to be too
freely handled, while the curtain at last rose to the lighted stage.
She was later on more open about
it,
sundry other things, not wholly alien, having meanwhile happened. One of
these had been that her friend had waited with her to the end of the
Finnish performance
and that it had then, in the lobby, as they went out, not been possible for
her not to make him acquainted with Mr Mortimer Marshal. This gentleman had
clearly waylaid her and had also clearly divined that her companion was of
the Papers papery all through; which doubtless had something to do
with his having handsomely proposed to them to accompany him somewhere to
tea. They hadnt seen why they shouldnt, it being an adventure,
all in their line like another; and he had carried them, in a
four-wheeler,
to a small and refined club in the region which was as the fringe of the
Piccadilly region,
where even their own presence scarce availed to contradict the implication
of the exclusive. The whole occasion, they were further to feel, was
essentially a tribute to their professional connection, especially that
side of it which flushed and quavered, which panted and
pined in their hosts personal nervousness. Maud Blandy now saw it vain
to contend with his delusion that she, underfed and unprinted, who
had never been so conscious as during these bribed moments of her non-conducting
quality, was papery to any purpose a delusion that exceeded, by her
measure, every other form of pathos. The decoration of the tea-room was a
pale, aesthetic green, the liquid in the delicate cups a copious potent
amber; the bread and butter was thin and golden, the muffins a revelation
to her that she was barbarously hungry. There were ladies at other tables
with other gentlemen ladies with long feather boas and hats not of
the sailor pattern, and gentlemen whose straight collars were doubled up
much higher than Howard Bights and their hair parted far more at the
side. The talk was so low, with pauses somehow so not of embarrassment that
it could only have been earnest, and the air, an air of privilege and
privacy to our young womans sense, seemed charged with fine things
taken for granted. If it hadnt been for Bights company she
would have grown almost frightened, so much seemed to be offered her for
something she couldnt do. That word of Bights about smashing a
window-pane had lingered with her; it had made her afterwards wonder, while
they sat in their stalls, if there werent some brittle surface in
range of her own elbow. She had to fall back on the consciousness of how
her elbow, in spite of her type, lacked practical point, and that was just
why the terms in which she saw her services now, as she believed, bid for,
had the effect of scaring her. They came out most, for that matter, in
Mr Mortimer Marshals dumbly-insistent eyes, which seemed to be
perpetually saying: You know what I mean when Im too refined
like everything here, dont you see? to say it out. You
know there ought to be something about me somewhere, and that really, with
the opportunities, the facilities you enjoy, it wouldnt be so much
out of your way just to well, reward this little
attention.
The fact that he was probably every day, in just the
same anxious flurry and with just the same superlative delicacy, paying
little attentions with an eye to little rewards, this fact by itself but
scantily eased her, convinced as she was that no luck but her own was as
hopeless as his. He squared the clever young wherever he could get at them,
but it was the clever young, taking them generally, who fed from his hand
and then forgot him. She didnt forget him; she pitied him too much,
pitied herself, and was more and more, as she found, now pitying everyone;
only she didnt know how to say to him that she could do, after all,
nothing for him. She oughtnt to have come, in the first place,
and wouldnt if it hadnt been for her companion. Her companion was
increasingly sardonic which was the way in which, at best, she now
increasingly saw him; he was shameless in acceptance, since, as she knew,
as she felt at his side, he had come only, at bottom, to mislead and to
mystify. He was, as she wasnt, on the Papers and of them,
and their baffled entertainer knew it without either a hint on the subject
from herself or a need, on the young mans own lips, of the least
vulgar allusion. Nothing was so much as named, the whole connection was
sunk; they talked about clubs, muffins, afternoon performances, the effect
of the Finnish soul upon the appetite, quite as if they had met in society.
Nothing could have been less like society she innocently supposed at
least than the real spirit of their meeting; yet Bight did nothing
that he might do to keep the affair within bounds. When looked at by their
friend so hard and so hintingly, he only looked back, just as dumbly, but
just as intensely and, as might be said, portentously; ever so
impenetrably, in fine, and ever so wickedly.
He didnt smile as if to cheer the least little bit;
which he might be abstaining from on purpose to make his promises solemn:
so, as he tried to smile she couldnt, it was all too dreadful
she wouldnt meet her friends eyes, but kept looking,
heartlessly, at the notes of the place, the hats of the ladies,
the tints of the rugs, the intenser
Chippendale,
here and there, of the chairs and tables, of the very guests, of the very
waitresses. It had come to her early: Ive done him, poor man,
at home, and the obvious thing now will be to do him at his club. But
this inspiration plumped against her fate even as an imprisoned insect
against the window-glass. She couldnt do him at his club without
decently asking leave; whereby he would know of her feeble feeler, feeble
because she was so sure of refusals. She would rather tell him,
desperately, what she thought of him than expose him to see again that she
was herself nowhere, herself nothing. Her one comfort was that, for the
half-hour it had made the situation quite possible he seemed
fairly hypnotised by her colleague; so that when they took leave he as good
as thanked her for what she had this time done for him. It was one of the
signs of his infatuated state that he clearly viewed Bight as a mass of
helpful cleverness, though the cruel creature, uttering scarce a sound, had
only fixed him in a manner that might have been taken for the fascination
of deference. He might perfectly have been an idiot for all the poor
gentleman knew. But the poor gentleman saw a possible leg up in
every bush; and nothing but impertinence would have convinced
him that she hadnt brought him, compunctiously as to the past, a
master of the proper art. Now, more than ever, how he would listen for
the postman!
The whole occasion had broken so, for busy Bight, into
matters to be attended to before
Fleet Street
warmed to its work, that the pair were obliged, outside, to part company
on the spot, and it was only on the morrow, a
Sunday,
that they could taste again of that comparison of notes which made for each
the main savour, albeit slightly acrid, of their current consciousness. The
air was full, as from afar, of the grand indifference of spring, of which
the breath could be felt so much before the face could be seen, and they
had bicycled side by side out to
Richmond Park
as with the impulse to meet it on its way. They kept a
Sunday,
when possible, sacred to the Suburbs as distinguished from the Papers
when possible being largely when Maud could achieve the
use of the somewhat fatigued family machine. Many sisters contended for it,
under whose flushed pressure it might have been seen spinning in many
different directions. Superficially, at Richmond, our young couple rested
found a quiet corner to lounge deep in the Park, with their machines
propped by one side of a great tree and their associated backs sustained by
another. But agitation, finer than the finest scorching, was in the air for
them; it was made sharp, rather abruptly, by a vivid outbreak from Maud. It
was very well, she observed, for her friend to be clever at the expense of
the general greed; he saw it in the light of his own jolly
luck, and what she saw, as it happened, was nothing but the general art of
letting you starve, yourself, in your hole. At the end of five minutes her
companion had turned quite pale with having to face the large extent of her
confession. It was a confession for the reason that in the first place it
evidently cost her an effort that pride had again and again successfully
prevented, and because in the second she had thus the air of having lived
overmuch on swagger. She could scarce have said at this moment what, for a
good while, she had really lived on, and she didnt let him know now
to complain either of her privation or of her disappointments. She did it
to show why she couldnt go with him when he was so awfully sweeping.
There were at any rate apparently, all over, two wholly different sets of
people. If everyone rose to his bait no creature had ever risen to hers;
and that was the grim truth of her position, which proved at the least that
there were two quite different kinds of luck. They told two different
stories of human vanity; they couldnt be reconciled. And the poor
girl put it in a nutshell. Theres
but one person Ive ever written to who has so much as
noticed my letter.
He wondered, painfully affected it rather
overwhelmed him; he took hold of it at the easiest point. One
person?
The misguided man we had tea with. He alone
he rose.
Well then, you see that when they do rise they
are misguided. In other words theyre donkeys.
What I see is that I dont strike the right
ones and that I havent therefore your ferocity; that is my ferocity,
if I have any, rests on a different ground. Youll say that I go for
the wrong people; but I dont, God knows witness Mortimer
Marshal fly too high. I picked him out, after prayer and fasting, as
just the likeliest of the likely not anybody a bit grand and yet not
quite a nobody; and by an extraordinary chance I was justified. Then I pick
out others who seem just as good, I pray and fast, and no sound comes back.
But I work through my ferocity too, she stiffly continued,
though at first it was great, feeling as I did that when my bread and
butter was in it people had no right not to oblige me. It was their duty
what they were prominent for to be interviewed, so
as to keep me going; and I did as much for them any day as they would be
doing for me.
Bight heard her, but for a moment said nothing.
Did you tell them that? I mean to say to them it was your little
all?
Not vulgarly I know how. There are ways of
saying its important; and I hint it just enough to see
that the importance fetches them no more than anything else. It isnt
important to them. And I, in their place, Maud went on,
wouldnt answer either; Ill be hanged if ever I would.
Thats what it comes to, that there are two distinct lots,
and that my luck, being born so, is always to try the snubbers. You were
born to know by instinct the others. But it makes me more
tolerant.
More tolerant of what? her friend
asked.
Well, of what you described to me. Of what you
rail at.
Thank you for me! Bight
laughed.
Why not? Dont you live on it?
Not in such luxury you surely must see for
yourself as the distinction you make seems to imply. It isnt
luxury to be nine-tenths of the time sick of everything. People moreover
are worth to me but tuppence apiece; there are too many, confound them
so many that I dont see really how any can be left over for
your superior lot. It is a chance, he pursued
Ive had refusals too though I confess
theyve sometimes been of the funniest. Besides, Im getting out
of it, the young man wound
up. God knows I want to. My advice to you, he added in
the same breath, is to sit tight. There are as good fish in the
sea!
She waited a moment. Youre sick of
everything and youre getting out of it; its not good enough for
you, in other words, but its still good enough for me. Why am I to
sit tight when you sit so loose?
Because what you want will come cant
help coming. Then, in time, youll also get out of it. But then
youll have had it, as I have, and the good of it.
But what, really, if it breeds nothing but
disgust, she asked, do you call the good of
it?
Well, two things. First the bread and butter, and
then the fun. I repeat it sit tight.
Wheres the fun, she asked again,
of learning to despise people?
Youll see when it comes. It will all be
upon you, it will change for you any day. Sit tight, sit tight.
He expressed such confidence that she might for a
minute have been weighing it. If you get out of it, what will you
do?
Well, imaginative work. This job has made me at
least see. It has given me the loveliest tips.
She had still another pause. It has given me
my experience has a lovely tip too.
And whats that?
Ive told you before the tip of pity.
Im so much sorrier for them all panting and gasping for it
like fish out of water than I am anything else.
He wondered. But I thought that was what just
isnt your experience.
Oh, I mean then, she said impatiently ,
that my tip is from yours. Its only a different tip. I want to
save them.
Well, the young man replied, and as if the
idea had had a meaning for him, saving them may perhaps work out as a
branch. The question is can you be paid for it?
Beadel-Muffet would pay me, Maud suddenly
suggested.
Why, thats just what Im
expecting, her companion laughed, that he will, after to-morrow
directly or indirectly do me.
Will you take it from him then only to get him in
deeper, as thats what you perfectly know youll do? You
wont save him; youll lose him.
What then would you, in the case, Bight
asked, do for your money?
Well, the girl thought. Id get him to
see me I should
have first, I recognize, to catch my hare and
then Id work up my stuff. Which would be boldly, quite by a
master-stroke, a statement of his fix of the fix, I mean, of his
wanting, his supplicating to be dropped. Id give out that it would
really oblige. Then Id send my copy about, and the rest of the matter
would take care of itself. I dont say you could do it that
way youd have a different effect. But I should be able to
trust the thing, being mine, not to be looked at, or, if looked at, chucked
straight into the basket. I should so have, to that extent, handled the
matter, and I should so, by merely touching it, have broken the spell.
Thats my one line I stop things off by touching them.
Thered never be a word about him more.
Her friend, with his legs out and his hands locked at
the back of his neck, had listened with indulgence. Then hadnt
I better arrange it for you that Beadel-Muffet shall see you?
Oh, not after youve damned him!
You want to see him first?
It will be the only way to be of any use
to him. You ought to wire him in fact not to open his mouth till he has
seen me.
Well, I will, said Bight at last.
But, you know, we shall lose something very handsome his
struggle, all in vain, with his fate. Noble sport, the sight of it
all. He turned a little, to rest on his elbow, and, cycling suburban
young man as he was, he might have been, outstretched under his tree,
melancholy Jacques looking off into a forest glade,
even as sailor-hatted Maud, in for elegance a new cotton
blouse and a long-limbed angular attitude, might have prosefully suggested
the
mannish Rosalind.
He raised his face in appeal to her. Do you really ask me to
sacrifice it?
Rather than sacrifice him? Of course I
do.
He said for a while nothing more; only, propped on his
elbow, lost himself again in the Park. After which he turned back to her.
Will you have me? he suddenly asked.
Have
you?
Be my bonny bride. For better, for worse, I
hadnt, upon my honour, he explained with obvious sincerity,
understood you were so down.
Well, it isnt so bad as that, said
Maud Blandy.
So bad as taking up with me?
It isnt as bad as having let you know
when I didnt want you to.
He sank back again with his head dropped, putting himself
more at his ease. Youre too proud thats whats
the matter with you. And Im too stupid.
No, youre not, said Maud grimly.
Not stupid.
Only cruel, cunning, treacherous, cold-blooded,
vile? He drawled the words out softly, as if they sounded fair.
And Im not stupid either, Maud Blandy
went on. We just, poor creatures well, we just
know.
Of course we do. So why do you want us to drug
ourselves with rot? to go on as if we didnt know?
She made no answer for a moment; then she said:
Theres good to be known too.
Of course, again. There are all sorts of things,
and some much better than others. Thats why, the young man
added, I just put that question to you.
Oh no, it isnt. You put it to me because
you think I feel Im no good.
How so, since I keep assuring you that
youve only to wait? How so, since I keep assuring you that if you do
wait it will all come with a rush? But say I am sorry for
you, Bight lucidly pursued; how does that prove either that my
motive is base or that I do you a wrong?
The girl waived this question, but she presently tried
another. Is it your idea that we should live on all the
people?
The people we catch? Yes, old man, till we can do
better.
My conviction is, she soon returned,
that if I were to marry you I should dish you. I should spoil the
business. It would fall off; and, as I can do nothing myself, then where
should we be?
Well, said Bight, we mightnt be
quite so high up in the scale of the morbid.
Its you that are morbid, she
answered. Youve, in your way like everyone else, for
that matter, all over the place sport on the
brain.
Well, he demanded, what is sport but
success? What is success but sport?
Bring that out somewhere. If it be true,
she said, Im glad Im a failure.
After which, for a longish space, they sat together in
silence, a silence finally broken by a word from the young man. But
about Mortimer Marshal how do you propose to save
him?
It was a change of subject that might, by its so easy
introduction of matter irrelevant, have seemed intended to dissipate
whatever was left of his proposal of marriage. That proposal, however, had
been somehow both too much in the tone of
familiarity to linger and too little in that of vulgarity to drop. It had
had no form, but the mild air kept perhaps thereby the better the taste of
it. This was sensibly moreover in what the girl found to reply. I
think, you know, that hed be no such bad friend. I mean that, with
his appetite, there would be something to be done. He doesnt half
hate me.
Ah, my dear, her friend
ejaculated,
dont, for Gods sake, be low.
But she kept it up. He clings to me. You saw.
Its hideous, the way hes able to do
himself.
Bight lay quiet, then spoke as with a recall of the
Chippendale Club.
Yes, I couldnt do you as he could. But if you
dont bring it off?
Why then does he cling? Oh, because, all the
same, Im potentially the Papers still. Im at any rate the
nearest he has got to them. And then Im other things.
I see.
Im
so awfully attractive,
said Maud Blandy. She got up with this and, shaking out her frock, looked
at her resting bicycle, looked at the distances possibly still to be
gained. Her companion paused, but at last also rose, and by that time she
was awaiting him, a little gaunt and still not quite cool, as an
illustration of her last remark. He stood there watching her, and she
followed this remark up. I do, you know, really pity him.
It had almost a feminine fineness, and their eyes
continued to meet. Oh, youll work it! And the young man
went to his machine.
It was not till five days later that they again came
together, and during these days many things had happened. Maud Blandy had,
with high elation, for her own portion, a sharp sense of this; if it had at
the time done nothing more intimate for her the Sunday of bitterness just
spent with Howard Bight had started, all abruptly, a turn of the tide of
her luck. This turn had not in the least been in the young mans
having spoken to her of marriage since she hadnt even, up to
the late hour of their parting, so much as answered him straight: she dated
the sense of difference much rather from the throb of a happy thought that
had come to her while she cycled home to
Kilburnia
in the darkness. The throb had made her for the few minutes, tired as she
was, put on speed, and it had been the cause of still further proceedings
for her the first thing the next morning. The active step that was the
essence of these proceedings had almost
got itself taken before she went to bed; which indeed was what
had happened to the extent of her writing, on the spot, a meditated
letter. She sat down to it by the light of the guttering candle that
awaited her on the dining-room table and in the stale air of family
food that only had been a residuum so at the mercy
of mere ventilation that she didnt so much as peep into a
cupboard; after which she had been on the point of nipping over, as she
would have said, to drop it into that opposite pillar-box whose vivid maw,
opening out through thick London nights, had received so many of her
fruitless little ventures. But she had checked herself and waited, waited
to be sure, with the morning, that her fancy wouldnt fade; posting
her note in the end, however, with a confident jerk, as soon as she was up.
She had, later on, had business, or at least had sought it, among the
haunts that she had taught herself to regard as professional; but neither
on the Monday nor on either of the days that directly followed had she
encountered there the friend whom it would take a difference in more
matters than could as yet be dealt with to enable her to regard, with
proper assurance or with proper modesty, as a lover. Whatever he was, none
the less, it couldnt otherwise have come to her that it was possible
to feel lonely in the
Strand.
That showed, after all, how thick they must constantly have been
which was perhaps a thing to begin to think of in a new, in a
steadier light. But it showed doubtless still more that her companion was
probably up to something rather awful; it made her wonder, holding her
breath a little, about Beadel-Muffet, made her certain that he and his
affairs would partly account for Bights whirl of absence.
Ever conscious of empty pockets, she had yet always a
penny, or at least a hapenny, for a paper, and those she now scanned,
she quickly assured herself, were edited quite as usual. Sir A. B. C.
Beadel-Muffet K.C.B., M.P. had returned on Monday from
Undertone,
where
Lord and Lady Wispers
had, from the previous Friday, entertained a very select party;
Sir A. B. C. Beadel-Muffet K.C.B., M.P. was to attend on
Tuesday the weekly meeting of the society of the
Friends of Rest;
Sir A. B. C. Beadel-Muffet K.C.B., M.P. had kindly consented
to preside on Wednesday, at
Samaritan House,
at the opening of the Sale of Work of the
Middlesex Incurables.
These familiar announcements, however, far from appeasing her curiosity,
had an effect upon her nerves; she read into them mystic meanings that she
had never read before. Her freedom of mind in this direction was indeed at
the same time limited, for her own horizon was already, by the Monday
night, bristling with new possibilities, and
the Tuesday itself well, what had the Tuesday itself become, with
this eruption, from within, of interest amounting really to a revelation,
what had the Tuesday itself become but the greatest day yet of her life?
Such a description of it would have appeared to apply predominantly to
the morning had she not, under the influence, precisely, of the
mornings thrill, gone, towards evening, with her design, into the
Charing Cross Station.
There, at the bookstall, she bought them all, every rag that was hawked;
and there, as she unfolded one at a venture, in the crowd and under the
lamps, she felt her consciousness further, felt if for the moment quite
impressively, enriched. Personal Peeps Number Ninety-Three: a
Chat with the New Dramatist needed neither the H.B. as a
terminal signature nor a text spangled, to the exclusion of almost
everything else, with Mortimer Marshals that looked as tall as if lettered
on posters, to help to account for her young mans use of his time.
And yet, as she soon made out, it had been used with an economy that caused
her both to wonder and to wince; the peep commemorated being
none other than their tea with the artless creature the previous Saturday,
and the meagre incidents and pale impressions of that occasion furnishing
forth the picture.
Bight had solicited no new interview; he hadnt
been such a fool for she saw, soon enough, with all her
intelligence, that this was what he would have been, and that a repetition
of contact would have dished him. What he had done, she found
herself perceiving and perceiving with an emotion that caused her
face to glow was journalism of the intensest essence; a column
concocted of nothing, an omelette made, as it were, without even the
breakage of the egg or two that might have been expected to be the price.
The poor gentlemans whereabouts at five oclock was the only egg
broken, and this light and delicate crash was the sound in the world that
would be sweetest to him. What stuff it had to be, since the writer really
knew nothing about him, yet how its being just such stuff made it perfectly
serve its purpose! She might have marvelled afresh, with more leisure, at
such purposes, but she was lost in the wonder of seeing how, without
matter, without thought, without an excuse, without a fact and yet at the
same time sufficiently without a fiction, he had managed to be as resonant
as if he had beaten a drum on the platform of a booth. And he had not been
too personal, not made anything awkward for her, had given nothing
and nobody away, had tossed the
Chippendale Club
into the air with such a turn that it had fluttered down again, like a
blown feather, miles from its site.
The thirty-seven agencies would already be posting to their subscriber
thirty-seven copies, and their subscriber, on his side, would be
posting, to his acquaintance, many times thirty-seven, and thus at least
getting something for his money; but this didnt tell her why her
friend had taken the trouble if it had been a trouble; why
at all events he had taken the time, pressed as he apparently was for that
commodity. These things she was indeed presently to learn, but they were
meanwhile part of a suspense composed of more elements than any she had yet
tasted. And the suspense was prolonged, though other affairs too, that were
not part of it, almost equally crowded upon her; the week having almost
waned when relief arrived in the form of a cryptic post-card. The post-card
bore the H.B., like the precious Peep, which had already had a
wondrous sequel, and it appointed, for the tea-hour, a place of meeting
familiar to Maud, with the simple addition of the significant word
Larks!
When the time he had indicated came she waited for him,
at their small table, swabbed like the deck of a steam-packet, nose to nose
with a mustard-pot and a price-list, in the consciousness of perhaps after
all having as much to tell him as to hear from him. It appeared indeed at
first that this might well be the case, for the questions that came up
between them when he had taken his place were overwhelmingly those he
himself insisted on putting. What has he done, what has he,
and what will he? that inquiry, not loud but deep, had met him
as he sat down; without however producing the least recognition. Then she
as soon felt that his silence and his manner were enough for her, or that,
if they hadnt been, his wonderful look, the straightest she had ever
had from him, would instantly have made them so. He looked at her hard,
hard, as if he had meant I say, mind your eyes! and it amounted
really to glimpse, rather fearful, of the subject. It was no joke, the
subject, clearly, and her friend had fairly gained age, and he had
certainly lost weight, in his recent dealings with it. It struck her even,
with everything else, that this was positively the way he would have liked
him to show if their union had taken the form they hadnt reached the
point of discussing; wearily coming back to her from the thick of things,
wanting to put on his slippers and have his tea, all prepared by her and in
their place, and beautifully to be trusted to regale her in his turn. He
was excited, disavowedly, and it took more disavowal still after she had
opened her budget which she did, in truth, by saying to him as her
first alternative: What did you do him for, poor Mortimer
Marshal? It isnt that hes not in the seventh
heaven!
He is in the seventh heaven! Bight
quickly broke in. He doesnt want my blood?
Did you do him, she asked, that he
should want it? Its splendid how you could simply on that
show.
That show? Why, said Howard Bight,
that show was an immensity. That show was volumes, stacks,
abysses.
He said it in such at tone that she was a little at a
loss. Oh, you dont want abysses.
Not much, to knock off such twaddle. There
isnt a breath in it of what I saw. What I saw is my own affair.
Ive got the abysses for myself. Theyre in my head
its always something. But the monster, he demanded, has
written you?
How couldnt he that night? I got it
the next morning, telling me how much he wanted to thank me and asking me
where he might see me. So I went, said Maud, to see
him.
At his own place again?
At his own place again. What do I yearn for but
to be received at peoples own places?
Yes, for the stuff. But when youve had
as you had had from him the stuff?
Well, sometimes, you see, I get more. He gives me
all I can take. It was in her head to ask if by chance Bight were
jealous, but she gave it another turn. We had a big palaver, partly
about you. He appreciates.
Me?
Me first of all, I think. All the more
that Ive had fancy! a proof of my stuff, the despised
and rejected, as originally concocted, and that he has now seen it. I tried
it on again with
Brains,
the night of your thing sent if off with your thing enclosed as a
rouser. They took it, by return, like a shot youll see on
Wednesday. And if the dear man lives till then, for impatience, Im to
lunch with him that day.
I see, said Bight. Well, that was
what I did it for. It shows how right I was.
They faced each other, across their thick crockery,
with eyes that said more than their words, and that, above all, said, and
asked, other things. So she went on in a moment: I dont know
what he doesnt expect. And he thinks I can keep it up.
Lunch with him every
Wednesday?
Oh, hed give me my lunch, and more.
It was last Sunday that you were right
about my sitting close, she pursued, Id have been
a pretty fool to jump. Suddenly, I see, the music begins. Im awfully
obliged to you.
You feel, he presently asked, quite
differently so differently that Ive missed my chance? I
dont care for that serpent, but theres something else
that you dont tell me. The young man, detached and a little
spent, with his shoulder against the wall and a hand vaguely playing
over the knives, forks and spoons, dropped his succession of sentences
without an apparent direction. Something else has come up, and
youre as pleased as Punch. Or, rather, youre not quite entirely
so, because you cant goad me to fury. You cant worry me as much
as youd like. Marry me first, old man, and then see if I
mind. Why shouldnt you keep it up? I mean lunching with
him? His questions came as in play that was a little pointless,
without his waiting more than a moment for answers; though it was not
indeed that she might not have answered even in the moment, had not the
pointless play been more what she wanted. Was it at the place,
he went on, that he took us to?
Dear no at his flat, where Ive been
before. Youll see, in Brains, on Wednesday. I dont
think Ive muffed it its really rather there. But he
showed me everything this time the bathroom, the refrigerator, and
the machines for stretching his trousers. He has nine, and in constant
use.
Nine? said Bight gravely.
Nine.
Nine trousers?
Nine machines. I dont know how many
trousers.
Ah, my dear, he said, thats a
grave omission; the want of the information will be felt and resented. But
does it all, at any rate, he asked, sufficiently fetch
you? After which, as she didnt speak, he lapsed into helpless
sincerity. Is it really, you think, his dream to secure
you?
She replied, on this, as if his tone made it too
amusing. Quite. Theres no mistaking it. He sees me as, most
days in the year, pulling the wires and beating the drum somewhere; that is
he sees me of course not exactly as writing about our home
once Ive got one myself, but as procuring others to do
it through my being (as youve made him believe) in with the
Organs of Public Opinion. He doesnt see, if Im half decent, why
there shouldnt be something about him every day in the week.
Hes all right, and hes all ready. And who, after all,
can do him so well as the partner of his flat? Its like
making, in one of those big domestic siphons, the luxury of the poor, your
own soda-water. It comes cheaper, and its always on the sideboard.
Vichy chez soi.
The interviewer at home.
Her companion took it in. Your place is on
my sideboard
youre really a first-class fizz! He steps then, at any rate,
into Beadel-Muffets place.
That, Maud assented, is what he would
like to do. And she knew more than ever there was something to wait
for.
Its a lovely opening, Bight returned.
But he still said, for the moment, nothing else; as if, charged to the brim
though he had originally been, she had rather led his thought away.
What have you done with poor Beadel? she
consequently asked. What is it, in the name of goodness, youre
doing to him? Its worse than ever.
Of course its worse than ever.
He capers, said Maud, on every
housetop he jumps out of every bush. With which her anxiety
really broke out. Is it you that are doing it?
If you mean am I seeing him, I certainly am.
Im seeing nobody else. I assure you hes spread thick.
But youre acting for him?
Bight waited. Five hundred people are acting for
him; but the difficulty is that what he calls the terrific forces of
publicity by which he means ten thousand other
persons are acting against him. Weve all in fact been turned
on to turn everything off, and thats exactly the job that
makes the biggest noise. It appears everywhere, in every kind of connection
and every kind of type, that Sir A. B. C. Beadel-Muffet K.C.B.,
M.P. desires to cease to appear anywhere; and then it
appears that his desiring to cease to appear is observed to conduce
directly to his more tremendously appearing, or certainly, and in the most
striking manner, to his not in the least disappearing. The
workshop of silence roars like the Zoo at dinner-time. He
cant disappear; he hasnt weight enough to sink; the
splash the diver makes, you know, tells where he is. If you ask me what
Im doing, Bight wound up, Im holding him under
water. But were in the middle of the pond, the banks are thronged
with spectators, and Im expecting from day to day to see stands
erected and gate-money taken. There, he wearily smiled, you
have it. Besides, he then added with an odd change of tone, I
rather think youll see to-morrow.
He had made her at last horribly nervous. What
shall I see?
It will all be out.
Then why shouldnt you tell me?
Well, the young man said, he
has disappeared. There you are. I mean personally. Hes not
to be found. But nothing could make more, you see, for ubiquity. The country
will ring with it. He vanished on Tuesday night was then
last seen at his club. Since then he has given no sign. How can a man
disappear who does that sort of thing? It is, as you say, to caper
on the housetops. But it will only be known to-night.
Since when, then, Maud asked, have
you known it?
Since three oclock to-day. But Ive
kept it. I am a while longer keeping it.
She wondered; she was full of fears. What do you
expect to get for it?
Nothing if you spoil my market. I seem to
make out that you want to.
She gave this no heed; she had her thought. Why
then did you three days ago wire me a mystic word?
Mystic?
What do you call Larks?
Oh, I remember. Well, it was because I saw larks
coming; because I saw, I mean, what has happened. I was sure it would have
to happen.
And what the mischief is it?
Bight smiled. Why, what I tell you. That he has
gone.
Gone where?
Simply bolted to parts unknown. Where
is what nobody who belongs to him is able in the least to say, or seems
likely to be able.
Any more than why?
Any more than why.
Only you are able to say that?
Well, said Bight, I can say what has
so lately stared me in the face, what he has been thrusting at me in all
its grotesqueness: his desire for a greater privacy worked through the
Papers themselves. He came to me with it, the young man presently
added. I didnt go to him.
And he trusted you, Maud replied.
Well, you see what I have given him the
very flower of my genius. What more do you want? Im spent, seedy,
sore. Im sick, Bight declared, of his beastly
funk.
Mauds eyes, in spite of it, were still a little
hard. Is he thoroughly sincere?
Good God, no! How can he be? Only trying
it as a cat, for a jump, tries too smooth a wall. He drops straight
back.
Then isnt his funk real?
As real as he himself is.
Maud wondered. Isnt his
flight?
Thats what we shall see!
Isnt, she continued, his
reason?
Ah, he laughed out, there you are
again!
But she had another thought and was not discouraged.
Maynt he be honestly, mad?
Mad oh yes. But not, I think, honestly.
Hes not honestly anything in the world but the Beadel-Muffet of our
delight.
Your delight, Maud observed after a moment,
revolts me. And then she said: When did you last see
him?
On Tuesday at six, love. I was one of the
last.
Decidedly, too, then, I judge, one of the
worst. She gave him her idea. You hounded him on.
I reported, said Bight, success. Told
him how it was going.
Oh, I can see you! So that if hes
dead
Well? asked Bight blandly.
His blood is on your hands.
He eyed his hands a moment. They are
dirty for him! But now, darling, he went on, be so good as to
show me yours.
Tell me first, she objected, what you
believe. Is it suicide?
I think thats the thing for us to make it.
Till somebody, he smiled, makes it something else. And he
showed how he warmed to the view. There are weeks of it, dearest,
yet.
He leaned more toward her, with his elbows on the
table, and in this position, moved by her extreme gravity, he lightly
flicked her chin with his finger. She threw herself, still grave, back from
his touch, but they remained thus a while closely confronted.
Well, she at last remarked, I shant pity
you.
You make it, then, everyone except me?
I mean, she continued, if you do have
to loathe yourself.
Oh, I shant miss it. And then as if
to show how little, I did mean it, you know, at Richmond, he
declared.
I wont have you if youve killed
him, she presently returned.
Youll decide in that case for the
nine? And as the allusion, with its funny emphasis, left her
blank: You want to wear all the trousers?
You deserve, she said, when light came,
that I should take him. And she kept it up. Its a
lovely flat.
Well, he could do as much. Nine, I suppose,
appeals to you as the number of the muses?
This short passage, remarkably, for all its irony,
brought them together again, to the extent at least of leaving Mauds
elbows on the table and of keeping her friend, now a little back in his
chair, firm while he listened to her. So the girl came out. Ive
seen Mrs Chorner three times. I wrote that night, after our talk at
Richmond, asking her to oblige. And I put on cheek as I had never, never
put it. I said the public would be so glad to hear from her on the
occasion of her engagement.
Do you call that cheek? Bight looked
amused. She at any rate rose straight.
No, she rose crooked; but she rose. What you had
told me there in the Park well, immediately happened. She did
consent to see me, and so far you had been right in keeping me up to it.
But what do you think it was for?
To show you her flat, her tub,
her petticoats?
She doesnt live in a flat; she lives in a
house of her own, and a jolly good one, in
Green Street, Park Lane;
though I did, as happened, see her tub, which is a dream all marble
and silver, like a kind of a
swagger sarcophagus,
a thing for the
Wallace Collection;
and though her petticoats, as she first shows, seem all that, if you wear
petticoats yourself, you can look at. Theres no doubt of her money
given her place and her things, and given her appearance too, poor
dear, which would take some doing.
She squints? Bight sympathetically
asked.
Shes so ugly that she has to be
rich she couldnt afford it on less than five thousand a year.
As it is, I could well see, she can afford anything even such a
nose. But shes funny and decent; sharp, but a really good sort. And
theyre not engaged.
She told you so? Then there you are!
It all depends, Maud went on; and you
dont know where I am at all. I know what it depends
on.
Then there you are again! Its a mine of
gold.
Possibly, but not in your sense. She
wouldnt give me the first word of an interview it wasnt
for that she received me. It was for something much better.
Well, Bight easily guessed. For my
job?
To see what can be done. She loathes his
publicity.
The young mans face lighted. She